I can’t play the if/when game any more. I value myself, I see my potential a certain way and other people see it differently. There is always a bias present – and I know, if I’m VALUED differently – then you would have tried harder to stay in my life. It’s very simple. I’m going to keep going regardless. I’m just not going to keep these attachments any longer. I’m too old for “I told you so.” I’m too tired. Time to retire this sentiment. I just wish people hadn’t hurt me on purpose. There’s no excuse for it. They fucked my life up intentionally when I was trying to start over and heal.